Hello, so i find myself writting this blog. Its about time really, over the years i have kept numerous thinspo diaries yet this is something totally different, this can be seen by other people and people can comment. Throughout this blog i will not use my real name and pictures of me will have my face cropped out for identity purposes.
I have struggled with eating disorders since i was 9 but i think it was slightly younger, im soon approaching 16 and have recovered from anorexia and ednos, now face myself measuring myself daily and weighing myself as much as possible. And it is such a hard emotional journey. I think unless people actually have an eating disorder then there not going to understand the daily battle with food and numbers, how a simple shopping trip can lead to bitterness between the rest of the family as you do not allow an item with such high calorie content to enter your trolly.
I think when i was ana i was at my happiest purley because i was achieving and controlling, when i was forced to recover after a lengthy hospital stay i found myself slowly going down hill and looking like 'all the other girls in class' as my health deteriorated also. I put on more than a few pounds with high amounts of steriods, and now thanks to ana im loosing again, slowly but surely.
Oh dear.. im lost for words allready, not a good start. In this blog there will be some thinspo pics, i will post things i eat and how i feel. Then i can reflect and think 'what a fat pig'